Monthly Archives: May 2011

Tequila Day- DAY 53

God, thank you for keeping me sober. The last few day’s that I have not written is because I have been exhausted. I need to do this everyday, it helps. When I don’t sit down at this damn computer and write after … Continue reading

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HOPE: 4×12=48 (4 in regards to the step I am on and 12 for the 12 steps) and in 12 days will be day 60!

Good evening. A “friend” of mine on Facebook asked me today why I am so hard on myself? I responded to him right away but as the last few hours have been passing by I have been asking myself that.   When … Continue reading

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Do I want to die now? Not die now….just not exist.

Today was ok. I could not write yesterday. I guess on day 47 God decided to show me just how much of a fucking alcoholic I am and what the disease is; my life long fellowship of letting God protect … Continue reading

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Bulimia or Alcoholism: Out of Control

I am not going to proof-read this. I’m tired. Hi, my name is LostCompanion and I am an alcoholic. I should have been in bed hours ago but mixing depression with junk food (I was told to replace the sugar … Continue reading

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45 days: The good times of drinking

I’m LostCompanion and I am an alcoholic. Today was ok. I guess not wanting to die makes it a good day. Fucking 45 days. Crazy. I would like to share how I feel when I drank (the good times) and I am … Continue reading

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I want to drink so badly

 Hi, I’m LostCompanion and I am an alcoholic.   After writing the last blog my mind went a little bit crazy. I want to drink so badly. It is highly suggested that in early sobriety, if you’re not in a … Continue reading

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She sacrificed us for a man

Hello, my name is LostCompanion and I am an alcoholic. I met with my sponsor today. I need to go into more detail with my inventory. That sucks. For instance: It’s not enough to say I hate the babysitter who … Continue reading

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too far gone

Hello, my name is LostCompanion and I am an alcoholic. It is absolutely fucking amazing to me how people who are not alcoholics seem to know what the disease is all about. Trust me, if you are dealing with an … Continue reading

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Relationship (s)

Hello, my name is LostCompanion and I am an alcoholic. Short and Sweet tonight: Here I am. Sitting at my desk trying to think about what to write and how I am feeling….. I feel somewhat content. In a very … Continue reading

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The Depression

Hello, my name is LostCompanion and I am an alcoholic. When I drank I was ALWAYS up and down, almost like I was bi-polar. I had a lot of friends to party with. The next day after drinking started with either not remembering what happened … Continue reading

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