A good day

Hello, my name is LostCompanion and I am an alcoholic.

I was thinking about the amount of insecurity and anxiety I had when I was
drinking. It was very bad on a daily basis. I was always paranoid that I
was going to get in trouble and everyday I walked in to work I was going to
be told I did something wrong. Now that I have had this clarity in my sober brain I seem to have let go of most of that anxiety and paranoia….the more I sober up and heal.

I have also been thinking about the last seven years and how there were
periods of time when I was sober, the sobriety did not last long. I can recall three solid times and I was either in an institution or rehab (same thing really).

Yesterday was probably the best day I have had in the last 33 days. I
didn’t cry and I didn’t feel great by any means but I did ok.
I have to remember to pray more. I forget about God a lot because for the
last seven years I  have put him on the back burner. I’ve got to focus
more. There is someone I am interested in. It’s very hard for me right now
because of where I am at and where my focus needs to be. I have to focus on
the thing that is going to keep me alive and strong, sobriety. Life right now is
about sobriety, it’s truly the only relationship I should have in my life
for a very long time. I need to take everything outside of my AA world slowly.

It took a lot to write about the crap I remembered the other night. It felt
good to get it out.

This is a major form of communication and healing for me, thank you staying with me my friend.

God keep me sober. Take away this anxiety. Thank you for the support I have
in my life.

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One Response to A good day

  1. Doug Gould says:

    Wow, that’s a lot of worrying about getting in trouble for drinking or messing something up because you were drinking. Sometimes alcohaul causes more stress than it relieves I guess!

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