Monthly Archives: July 2011

I am going to have to get a new sponsor

I think I am going to have to get a new sponsor. My sponsor has become very negative. I believe I am doing well and I am continuing with the program. I understand she has been struggling with her sobriety…I feel … Continue reading

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I’m 110 today

I am 110 today….In the last 110 days of sobriety I have figured out a lot about myself. For the first time in my life I have been sober as an adult to truly take myself seriously and try to … Continue reading

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I die now I will die sober

I’m sitting here, at a small table in a bony chair with a cigarette in my hand drinking coffee, listening to Queen and enjoying my day: my life, sober. I am on a business trip and I feel pretty damn … Continue reading

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Sleep For A Drink

I am watching Days of Wine And Roses. Fuck! I see myself in that movie. Crazy shit: fuck man. The scene where he is in such desperation for the bottle that he destroyed his father-in-laws greenhouse to find it. I was … Continue reading

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I did not perform well

I’m not fucking writing enough. Today was a pretty fucking emotional day for me, for many reasons…. I am still very fucking emotional. I still really enjoy my job but it was very stressful today. I truly wanted to go … Continue reading

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I’m not fucking writing enough. Today was a pretty fucking emotional day for me, for many reasons…. I am still very fucking emotional. I still really enjoy my job but it was very stressful today. I truly wanted to go … Continue reading

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off to work

I am off to work. I love my new  job. Today is 105 for me and I think I am doing ok. Started my 5th step last sunday and only got through 13 or 200 pages, yikes. This Sunday…all day…..I … Continue reading

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