Hi, 121 today: Oh how things have changed!

I have not written for a little while. I am finally home from my two-week business trip. The trip I took helped me in ways: unimaginable. So much in me changed due to the time I was able to be alone and think and see what ‘I’ wanted to do and had money to use as I wanted. I took time….I am sober. I did not relapse. God protected me. Needless to say, I am home and now I have taken over my finances. I am strong enough and ready to take that part of my life back.

I changed my sponsor. I now have a man who is leading me through the steps. This is another reason my life and perspective has changed so greatly. I am 5th and 9th stepping with a woman but the man who I am working with is taking me through the other steps. He is a Christian man and in AA people with such beliefs are hard to find. He is a major Big Book thumper. We have quickly started over in steps 1,2 and 3. My knowledge of step one is astonishing now. I am thankful to God he has kept me sober through out these last 4 months to get to this point…to really see the depths of this program.

I turned 120 yesterday. Four months, thank you God, four months. I am so blessed to have made it this far. A pink cloud  am not on, the Grace God has for me is present in my life through; I feel it. I will not always feel this way but I am thankful for the feeling I have right now, God is near. I am not alone.

I have started dating a man in AA. He is not someone I would have ever seen myself with. There are qualities in him I have never seen or found in another human being. I don’t know where this will take me but for right now it is a very positive thing in my life.

Thank you for reading this and sticking with me.

I have kept in tough with my “adopted” soldier who is in Afghanistan. He seems to be doing well. He is now in the states on R&R; pray for him: John is his name.

God, please help me to focus on you more and to give more of myself. Help me with morning meditation and evening reflection.

 

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