Light’s out is in 5 minutes. I didn’t drink. If I did I would not be here, I would probably be underground.
I knew a few weeks ago that I needed to watch myself because I started yearning for a drink.
I came in a few days ago because I want to die. I actually spent a few hours in the tub planning on cutting my wrist and slowly watch the tube water turn read. When I snapped out of those thoughts I called a help-line.
Tomorrow is day three.
I feel very depressed and the anxiety off the charts.
Going to bed now. When I have downtown I will come back and talk.