Shortly after I sent that email I had an anxiety attack: body memoreies of the sexual abouse, anxiety over getting a job, money, feeling badly to ask for more money from my mom and dad.
I can’t wait to see them.
I asjed my dad to tell me he is proud of me.
When I was going “crazy” I was having racing thoughts. No amount of breathing exercises or journaling or talking could have helped. She gave me some medication to relax and I colored for a while before taking a long hot shower. I tried to get all the pain out…still some in there.
Good night friends.
It’s been a full week here.