Monthly Archives: September 2012

I want to drink and smoke!

I want to drink and smoke right now so fucking badly. I am very angry. I was talking with my step-mom tonight about my mother and how my mother found them when my sister and I were 19-years-old for child-support. … Continue reading

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Mom/Dad

I don’t have to be like my mom or my dad. I know who both of them are. I know they both have bipolar disease and are compulsive spenders. They live in their own reality that they make up as … Continue reading

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Caregiver vs. CNA

I have been thinking of all of the things I need to do before I get to college. I have even made a list of things before I even start class. What I need to do is go over the … Continue reading

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Just Another Day

Things seem to be staying pretty steady right now. I just visited my dad in the hospital. Again, I am very frustrated with him. He is back to his “active addict” mindset. All he is talking about is his pain. … Continue reading

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Dreams of Drinking and Smoking

I have been dreaming about smoking the last few nights. They have been very detailed and some are crazy-ass dreams, things I can’t believe my mind would come up with. I still dream about alcohol…..I, at times, think about drinking. … Continue reading

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Interesting

It’s interesting how two months ago I was going to run from here and move…I would have lost out on all of the things I have in my life from being here. I once said I regret being here but … Continue reading

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Furthering My Life.

I have a job out here as a geriatric caregiver. This job is amazing. I make just enough money to pay for gas and put a small amount away for school. There is a program at the nursing home I … Continue reading

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