Thank you so much for all of the comments, stories and encouragement.
I need to focus on the good in my life. Yes I am sad but damn it this shit will not get me down, it CAN’T; not after all I have been through.
Good: school, comedy, music, art, elderly, nature, alone time, blogging, reading, coffee shops, driving, future, freedom.
I was thinking about going with my step-mom to her mothers who is now in an assisted-living residence. I think I need to stay home, put on music and work on my room…light some incense, organize and clean…be me.