Yesterday was a good day. I got a lot done in the house and rearranged my room, detailed it and cleaned out my car.
I stayed out until 3:30am last night, I hung out with my boyfriend. I don’t think I ended it…I let him know where I stand tho. I told him I have been very fragile and I think I have let myself like him more than I should. I explained that his comments about us being open to sleeping with other people was not what I had in mind in our relationship therefore I am backing away. He said I misunderstood him….
After spending time with him last night I realize that I really do like my life and the way I go about my day. Getting my education is my focus in life and I told him that. See, he is a very intelligent man. He did IT work for the government for some time and he learned everything he knows because he taught himself. As far as what he does for a living, I don’t give a shit; right now he is a bartender at a steak-house. What matters to me is what he does with his free-time and what kind or a father he is. As far as a father he seems pretty good. As far as what he does with his time, is not quite what I like to do most of the time.
He talked about moving out of his house and letting his ex-wife and son live there while he either moves into an apartment, finds roommates or leaves for a little while. My first question was, “What about your son if you pick up and leave?” He didn’t answer.
My final thought on the topic of the boyfriend: I am on a much different path than he. I picture myself moving back to Denver when I finish school…I don’t like staying out until 3:30am and I told him that. I let him know I need balance and peace in my life and part of that is getting to bed at decent times and getting up at a reasonable hour. So who knows what’s going to happen.