New Life

I have a new life now; unknown.

I am venturing on a new journey of self-discovery and enlightenment. Getting this opportunity to go to college full-time and be an artist is slowly transforming my out-look on life. I feel like I have a purpose if nothing more than to expand my mind. I hope that after I graduate school I find a good job but I am putting that thought on the back-burner. This is my age of enlightenment. I am growing a new among the every changing but always steady life of education. I am excited as my stomach is churning…. I can do this!

I told my adviser that I am scared and he said confidently to me, “You can do this!” To which I replied, “Yes I can!”…….AND I CAN!

My schedule is going to be crazy and I will be busy, which is a great thing. I will be at school all day/evening, Monday through Thursday. I will be driving a lot and working very little which does not give me much money…perhaps not even enough for gas. I may look into getting another job but I only have Fri, Sat and Sunday open and Sundays are my family day with my step-mom and we go to church together. I have thought about selling my art work on etsy again…hum.

Am I afraid I will fail? Hell yes but I want to take these classes. I am in a program at a two year college, A.A.S Degree- Graphic Design. Almost every class I am taking I want to take.

Random thoughts: I want to make my father proud, I want to make my grandparents proud. ( I want to get my degree before one of them passes), I want my step-mom to be proud of me, success is the best revenge, I can do this, I deserve this, I can be a better artist, I can use more color, I can sing on the way to school in the car, I can talk to my father while driving, I can ponder who or what is the creator, I can impress myself, I can become selfish and selfless all at the same time, I can design, I can create, I can express myself, I can become something great. I can be me. I am me.

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11 Responses to New Life

  1. Mia says:

    Oh, this makes me so exited for you too! Please, when you have finished some art work, you must post them on your blog. Or perhaps put them up for sale! Can’t wait and always remember your Heavenly Pappa is the best Pappa ever and He is singing for joy over you!
    Hugs XX

  2. I think you are making great steps and have made great steps already so you have every reason to proud of yourself and others to be proud of you! I like the idea of selling your artwork….you seem to have a following here on wordpress so many you can make a selling page and post it here on your blog for extra promotion? Just an idea to help you out! Best of luck!

  3. Teresa Cleveland Wendel says:

    It’s good to make your family proud, but make yourself proud too.

  4. good for you for going for it!

  5. P.I.M.P!! says:

    Kudos to you for taking positive steps to cultivate and nurture your art!!!

  6. noel1543 says:

    I can empathize, that will also be me next semester 🙂

    I always think the pain of school is only temporary, you can do this!

  7. Terribly Sorry says:

    wow… reading this… you fill me up with enthusiasm and hope for my own life and future. thankyou. good luck. i know you will do amazing things. and one more thing – i am envious. 🙂

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