I have a new life now; unknown.
I am venturing on a new journey of self-discovery and enlightenment. Getting this opportunity to go to college full-time and be an artist is slowly transforming my out-look on life. I feel like I have a purpose if nothing more than to expand my mind. I hope that after I graduate school I find a good job but I am putting that thought on the back-burner. This is my age of enlightenment. I am growing a new among the every changing but always steady life of education. I am excited as my stomach is churning…. I can do this!
I told my adviser that I am scared and he said confidently to me, “You can do this!” To which I replied, “Yes I can!”…….AND I CAN!
My schedule is going to be crazy and I will be busy, which is a great thing. I will be at school all day/evening, Monday through Thursday. I will be driving a lot and working very little which does not give me much money…perhaps not even enough for gas. I may look into getting another job but I only have Fri, Sat and Sunday open and Sundays are my family day with my step-mom and we go to church together. I have thought about selling my art work on etsy again…hum.
Am I afraid I will fail? Hell yes but I want to take these classes. I am in a program at a two year college, A.A.S Degree- Graphic Design. Almost every class I am taking I want to take.
Random thoughts: I want to make my father proud, I want to make my grandparents proud. ( I want to get my degree before one of them passes), I want my step-mom to be proud of me, success is the best revenge, I can do this, I deserve this, I can be a better artist, I can use more color, I can sing on the way to school in the car, I can talk to my father while driving, I can ponder who or what is the creator, I can impress myself, I can become selfish and selfless all at the same time, I can design, I can create, I can express myself, I can become something great. I can be me. I am me.