Part of the reason I don’t talk to many people about what is going on with me and my relationship to my step-mom is because we are all mourning the loss of my father and trying to cope in our own ways and I don’t want to make my step-mom look bad, she is suffering inside too.
My path in life has taught me to deal with things extremely differently than my step-mom and little sister. The two of them have been through life together, they experienced my dad together ( good, bad and the ugly ugly), they have suffered greatly together and managed to keep a house going between the two of them. I feel that their relationship has an unhealthy dynamic to it. That being said, my relationship with my mother is completely dysfunctional, so who am I to judge? I guess I look at it like this, the two of them together are not healthy for me so I stay away when I can.
Back to my point. The above paragraph is merely my opinions and observations of what’s going on in my world, from my perspective. I am both an insider and an outsider. With the knowledge I carry and the world I live in there are not many people I can talk to. I don’t talk to many people on a regular basis about me and my life; what I like and don’t like…back home my life was filled with friends and family. I talk to my granddad at times but I am thankful I have you, my blog friends. I have the world out there that gives back to me in this way. For now, this will do fine.