I have an inner battle going on inside of me right now. I do not believe in what my step-mother believes in. I don’t agree with the church and their teachings.
I have decided my stance on abortion is this: I do not agree with abortion but I believe so strongly in the right we have as individual human beings to make our won choices…who is the government or a religion to tell me what I can and can not do?
I believe we are ALL created equal and in that equality love is the most powerful force to be fought. Who am I to tell someone they are not aloud to be with another? Who am I to?
Is it not crazy what is going on under the microscope? I know I was meant to be something, what is it? Perhaps I am here only to tell my story.
My inner battle: I want to stop going to church with my step-mom but I feel like a hypocrite. I feel like I am living a lie I can’t keep up. I don’t know if a lie can be communication. I only go to make her happy. I do it because I care too much what she thinks. I care because she holds my education in her hands. I do it because I don’t want to start waves but my inner being screams inside because I am not being true to me, to my core beliefs…my being. Where does the line end? When do I say something or do I at all? I want to stop worrying about what she thinks and if I am pleasing her or not. It is hard to continue something I have quickly grown to hate more and more. I don’t hate the church, I hate religion and what it does to the people. I have seen all too much misuse of what an unconditional act is in the name of being a christian. I walk just as beautiful a path if not even more because I yearn for the truth, not an answer from a text book passed down by a generation…as it is all across the world. We need a universal oneness; I know is too much to ask.
I may talk to my step-mom and tell her how I feel, I was advised not to. I can’t live a lie when it comes to spirituality above all!