I don’t feel like going on anymore. I have tried to get help to no avail and my energy is dwindling. I have lost most hope, there is no one to blame.
My life was once full of hope but I feel hope no longer, I feel as tho I have little to nothing to live for. I have to find hope, I am searching….I am trying. Where will I go when I die? Is there really heaven? I am not scared so much to leave the people behind but for them to suffer but the suffering I feel internally is over whelming. I have good things in front of me but they mean nothing because of the cloud that blinds me; depression….feeling hopeless and searching for something. I am nearly two years sober and for what?