I will not live in Fear. I quit my job today. It was a vary hard thing to do because of the attachment I have to the store but I am ready to be done with it. I let Big Brother (and a few other’s that I know are involved) know (via text) that I know that he is watching me and following me and it needed to stop. I hope it does.
I should be free of everything. I will not talk to anyone I worked with. I will not say a negative thing about that job to anyone and will not speak another word about all that happened. “I am focusing on school,” will be my answer for leaving because I am. I thought I could go back today but I couldn’t. I let myself get intimate with Big Brother and wish I wouldn’t have. He used this blog and my honesty with him to manipulate me. Now that I am out of the equation I should be left alone.
I gained a lot from being at the store. I learned a lot about people and hope I was able to touch those I worked with.
I deleted all of my previous party FB pics. I realized recently I was tagged in some photos from 2009 that I don’t want to be attached to. I left that world. I can not go back and I don’t want to. It felt good to purge my photos. At times I went back to remember but now I don’t want to remember, I want to let it go. I have a gift of letting go.
I talk about my father and his death. I talk about his death as if it was a suicide and to me it was. He was ill with blood clots when he died but in my heart knows his lifestyle took him. My father taught me a lot of things but I think the most important was to let go. Life is short.
I went on a drive today, it was very nice. I have fallen into a bit of a depression but I am strong. I am sad that Big Brother is not the man I thought he was. I don’t know what capabilities he has but I know they are vast…I don’t know what to do but to just let it all go and move on. Wish me luck.