I will tell you this. I don’t have a triumphant story to tell about how I am so happy and the sadness has left. I can tell you that my life is slowly getting better. I see more hope. I have been seeing a therapist twice a week and I got back on an anti-depressant. Thank you for your kind words. Writing made me feel very vulnerable when I was already feeling naked to my core. My CORE is getting stronger and I am feeling better. I may not see a light at the end of this tunnel but I am starting to have faith that there is one.
Thank you for reading my blog and for the overwhelming number of incredibly supportive comments…I did not respond to them all but I read every one and please believe me, your faith has helped me through my darkest hours.
I celebrated two years of sobriety yesterday, I made it this far and if you have read my blog I am sure the gap I left between this blog and the last perhaps made you a skeptic but I did not drink; the thing I am finding most important to stay strong on. SOBRIETY.
Until we meet again, please know I am in a better place. Spring will start birthing. Much like the healing that is taking place in my heart and I hope soul. Life of the trees seem to be coming very slowly this Spring, yet I am able to recognize this birth of LIFE is coming, it takes time.
lostcompanion 
Very happy for you 😀
Climbing out of the depths is the hardest part and you are doing a fantastic job.
This is what wordpress sent me, unknowingly to them I take this as a two year B-Day reminder of my Sobriety date. I think this is really cool.
Happy Anniversary!
You registered on WordPress.com 2 years ago!
Thanks for flying with us. Keep up the good blogging!
Very very very happy for you! Congratulations, be proud 🙂
Love, Anna xx
Thank you my friend, I am just happy to feel like I can start to thrive instead of thrive. Your support ROCKS!
Thank you so much AF! Your support helps greatly! I wish you well 🙂
I’m so glad you are feeling better, as I continue to pray for you. I pray that the Lord will continue to give you hope, with the budding of each bloom and each leaf. I pray that He will fill you with strength and courage as you prepare to face each new day, and that with every obstacle you face, you will continue to grow stronger, and more rooted in Him, and in who He says you are, not what you think of yourself, and not what your family or others might have said about you. I pray that He will reveal His great and wonderful love to you, and that when you look at yourself in the mirror, you will see the lovely young woman God created you to be… a woman who is created in His image… a woman who is worth so much to Him, that He was willing to be sacrificed for you, because knowing that you would be safe brought Him great joy, even in the midst of His suffering. I pray that you will realize, as you gaze at yourself in the mirror, that YOU are the apple of His eye, and that for every victory in your life, every step you take towards Him, brings Him great joy, and that He rejoices over you with singing, as He quiets all of your pain, all of your fears and doubts with His love. In Jesus’ name, my beloved friend, I pray that you will come to know and understand how wide and how long, how high and how deep God’s love for you really is… I bind up every fear, every rejection, every lie, every abandonment, and every curse that rose up against you and harmed you; and I loose peace in Jesus’ name. I loose forgiveness and mercy, and I loose joy in the Lord, which will give you strength.
May the Lord continue to bless you, and congratulations on year two of sobriety. That is a wonderful achievement, and an inspiration to others who struggle with addictions. God bless you for your honesty and openness, because as you shared your pain and your struggles, others related to it, and I know how hard it is to share and open yourself up, when you are drowning in depression… May He richly bless you, because although you made yourself vulnerable and shared your pain with us, today, when things are going better for you, you shared that good news as well. Thank you for sharing your good news with us, and please know that I will continue to pray for you every time you cross my mind.
Much love to you, and many blessings as well,
Cheryl
So glad to hear from you and know that you are alright… And you can at least feel hope and that there is some light ..Yes spring is around the corner taking it’s time like you said but it is coming…take care Diane
Stay strong. The best years of my life were when I decided to get sober.
Cool, I am working on it…thank you!
I am glad to hear that you are on the path to healing, at least thats the way I see it from what you say. Many a persons journey is long and hard, but is worth a fortune when you arrive and keep taking that step forward not falling back into a pit of dispair. Everyday can be like spring in a persons life if they choose to see it as such, even on cold winter days, God smiles inside.
I’m glad to hear that you’re feeling better. 🙂
Congratulations on 2 years!
Thank you very much!
Congratulations on the two full years sober. That is HUGE!
I’ve been praying for you even though you haven’t been blogging. God will help you through this. Slow growth is much better than quick growth. Oak trees take much longer to mature than pine trees do. Oak is a much more durable wood for furniture. You’re on the right path.
You’re stronger now than you were the last time we heard from you. Keep on keeping on.
I am so relieved to see your post!!! I’ve been praying for you and concerned that you were feeling so hopeless. I thank God for holding onto you and bringing you out of such a desperate place. My heart is smiling 🙂
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Praying for you… I pray that God’s peace and love surrounds you, guides you, and brings you joy. I’m thankful that it sounds like you are making progress in the right direction. God bless! 🙂
““The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.” (Numbers 6:24-26)
Amen to all that “eternally hopeful” shared with you.
One moment at a time…there’s grace for the moment my friend. 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 (New International Version) “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. ” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, …
I’ve just found your blog and want to say well done on your 2 years! I gave up drinking too, and I am now at the point where I can take it or leave it. Coming from someone who worried how I could ever do anything sober, I now wonder how I did everything drunk. Keep positive! 🙂
Hi Jackie, thank you for your comment and I can completely relate…how did we do everything drunk? A question I have pondered recently too. Take care of yourself, thanks for reading 🙂
You’re welcome 🙂
Congrats on 2 years and keep on keeping on. Nice to hear an update from you!